I have always remembered the unknown confederate soldier writing where he asks for things and receives others. It is in this spirit which I write an additional chapter of it. It inspires me!!! I wrote this last night in a inspired twenty minute overload. I enjoy writing but never had such a inspiration. I think its important somehow...maybe for just me but I can hope...
I prayed for heaven and the ability to reach the stars, instead I touched the face of god and was returned a different man so I might say something to the world.
I have prayed everyday since my illness, but never for a cure, only for mercy...I was given instead a hard road but endless moments of hope so I would have a deeper understanding of life.
I prayed for a healthy body in a dark time of life and was given a "soul-shine" to illuminate my way so I might see.
I prayed for wisdom to understand, instead was given a "beautiful mind" so I might appreciate the world without defining it.
I prayed for courage of self, instead was gifted the ability to strengthen those around me to remind me humility.
I prayed for a clear understanding of my life and past and got a deep clarity of thought to see into others so I may understand the meaning of service to mankind.
I prayed at times simply for one more day, instead I was given years so I may remember it's about each day and truly appreciate it with others...and understand..!!!
I prayed for help from people in my my life, and I was honored instead with solitude so I would have a deeper meaning of myself and the daily epiphany of self awareness.
I prayed for a quiet lone death to spare others around me their pain, instead I was given my father's final wish of family unity and the tender support within, so I might understand the true nature of unconditional love.
I prayed at times for a quick thoughtless death, instead was given an endless gift to impact people's lives so I might understand my purpose in the world.
I prayed for a voice to speak out, instead I was blessed with the ability to hear angels weep at the beauty and possibilities of my future for love.
I prayed for the strength to stand alone, instead was made weak in the presence of real love to ensure my heart was always open so I would truly see and make an impact with another.
I prayed for the eyes of god, instead was given a rare love so I might see god everyday in their eyes....so I might daily understand what real love is...thank you for that.
I prayed for all beautiful things for myself and instead was given wonderful gifts for others so I might know selflessness.
I prayed for all singular things and was given multiple things, none of which I requested, so I might always understand the gift of giving more than I receive...always.
I was given life and all things man searches for in life and death and a new profound impactual spirit that everyday gets better...an open heart rewarded !!! And a great sense of peace and purpose.
I was given No fear of pain, as I was shown it is in the fire of pain that shapes beautiful things and forges our character everyday.
I was given the rare ability to see beauty in all things, so I might never miss one thing.
I never prayed much before my illness but I did believe...today I thank god every single day, out-loud, at the first beauty I see everyday.
You see, I was most importantly given hope and the realization that hope gives me all things. I was given an iron clad faith in all things and the belief that all people are, and want to be, true at heart. I was given love, and all these other things so I might understand the power of dreams, and oh how I dream.
I hope any one of the many of my discoveries may touch your soul and give you a fraction of my hope and belief and internal peace. And I hope you always believe and, most importantly, dream of a day when fear never closes your hearts and minds. I pray god will lift his divine countenance upon you and give you peace...
Robert Michael Tremblay
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