I started working when I was 12 helping on a farm. I have always had a work ethic, assumed it was mostly genetic. Mom probably. Interestingly, the last book I finished was called The Biology of Belief by Bruce Lipton, PhD. His accounts and research in cellular biology are telling us what mystics and clerics have known for centuries. It's about energy really. Everything from the very base cells to each individual atom. Here's the real kick in the ass - even the atom vibrates. Yes, vibrates. Each element of this universe vibrates a resonant frequency of its own individual signature. Some vibrate differently and it has to do with a higher consciousness. Evolution, creation - it's about the source I guess. But I do believe this - my NDE probably catapulted me into a state of full brain activity, but I believe we all have the potential to get there. I don't think it's possible, I know it is, as certain as the nose on your face. The advancements in basic cellular biology teach us that the very core of existence - the cell - is only existent because of the environmental signals from the outside of it. That the very biology of belief is the brain's code and long term memory bank of reality perhaps . This code is stored in different parts of the brain lulled to sleep by complacency and habit. Anything to not "rock the boat", status quo is good. In fact it's spiritual suicide, I think. The very basic fabric of mankind has been woven and completed by those who forged ahead of us, but their forging became our limitations.
All babies are born with the inherit ability to swim. It's our teaching them early that they can't that triggers fear and sure enough, they sink like a stone. Just picture yourself trying to master the ability to float on top of water without movement. We have all tried it I guess. If not, do try. Float with your face up (obviously) and see if you can stay on top easily and at peace, able to breathe comfortably and at ease. Notice that when air goes in you rise higher in the water - safer. Life really is about breathing. lol We will get into that later, but short version is there are amazing things you can accomplish if you breath well. Notice and experiment while you float, hear the sound of filled ear canals, how sounds travel through vibration, feel the waves move your body, relax your breathing, experiment with your mind on occasion. I highly recommend it. Try something new for the love of god. New shit rocks. It's the very essence of creation. Now moments and epiphanies happen here. We have all experienced that. Attach an emotion...boom. For those who haven't read Bruce Lipton's book The Biology of Belief, please do so. It will change your life...literally.
Another favorite author is PMH Atwater. I have read a couple of her books, mostly on the after-effects of NDEs. When I was awakening after my experience, the biggest issue for me was "control". There are so many changes in your personality that you just can't even understand why you do this or that now. But more importantly, why you DON'T do this or that now. Philanthropy strikes hold, you're just sure you're supposed to share these abilities. There's that word. Ability. Please understand a different ability than you doesn't make me weird. It just makes me me. Don't always assume that gifts from the light for me are all easy to accommodate into our mortal world. They're not!!!! People don't understand how I see the world. I get that. What's in it for me I suppose is always the question. Dawns on me that I cheated the natural system a little. Evolution to a higher consciousness is man's very purpose in the universe I believe, or a big ass part of it. I leap frogged a few levels and I am good with that. But I am also good with the notion that it is every man and woman's destiny in this life or the next to make a meaningful impact on our universe. Each in our own given way or signature we make up a whole, like the light through a prism. Until this world becomes one - many brains, one mind - then we continue to resist the flow intended for us all in this world. Each person serves a purpose. Find it, then discover its purpose is abounding and limitless. There are layers in the universe you can't see, touch, taste, or hear, but you can feel them. You feel them when you shed your subconscious belief that you can't. And it's really that simple actually, I think. God's humor is that you have to step out of the box of what you have been told is possible and "normal" to see around the corner of the universe. I find that hilarious actually. When you lose EGO, you become one. When we live for the betterment of the whole, we are better. Just like cells. There are roughly 50 trillion cells in our body, each in perfect balance with each and every cell. The magic of life traces down to things too small for electron microscopes.
There are more layers folks, but there is one field that has been ignored or brushed aside for generations. The spirit. The energy. How is it possible for science to have taken the proverbial "high" road away from the spirit? When I say spirit I am referring to one harmonic resonating thing...ENERGY. Even thought creates energy and sends it into the environment. What if we all realized that one very simple truth in life? That even our thoughts create energy onto the universe that seeks more energy and mirrors what it finds. Wouldn't one just be a bit more careful how they thought about people and things? Being non-judgmental may be the library pass card to allow access to the universe's secrets maybe. One thing is clear to me - Ya gotta believe. I think it's a relevant topic considering my current status. Sitting here waiting for surgery again. Scheduled July 2nd, four days before my move. lol Gotta love it. Cracks me up really. I have thought long and hard about it. I have realized that pain distracts us and has distracted me for the past month as well. Every once in awhile you gotta re-focus your consciousness on manifesting your own perceived reality. It dawns on me the ability to get "better" in life is in direct proportion to your belief that you will get better. Any failure on this belief is the essence of disease. I took my eye off the ball for a bit. I focused on manifesting paths for others that deserved it, but I ignored myself. The last few days I have decided to rest...really rest. Maybe not so much because even rest for me means writing or reading and learning something new. I love my brain and its insatiable hunger for information. I laugh because I don't seek out the data for my own peace of mind, I seek out the data to help guide me in how I teach it to you the general public. I often have people comment when reading my stuff, "what the hell are you talking about?" lol I always think to myself, "what the hell are you reading it for?" Open-minded people usually trigger when reading various opinions or interpretations of the world. Closed-minded folks...not so much. I think it's critical to be as open-minded as you dare in life or you miss a ton of shit.
This last book of PMH Atwater struck me at heart in a number of different ways, but the following text is quoted verbatim from her book We Live Forever (ARE PRESS copyright 2004). I quote in verbatim because honestly I couldn't put it better myself. I love synchronicity. Each NDE experiencer has them countless times a day, but that's another whole blog soon. Just know our inherit ability to recognize the world is shrouded in limitations we have permanently in our memory banks. It's time to say goodbye to the Nocebo effect. Look up the word sometime, expand your brain a little. Like Placebo. There is an explanation to both meanings of the "bo" family. I think it's important to note here that positive belief is an essential life force, as is survival, but positive belief requires "free will" and here is where we fall on our asses. Will power is not so strong we're told - and so it isn't. Funny Henry Ford to coin the phrase, whether you think you can or can't, you're right. It's spot on perfect in relation to how I think energy works in this world. It's time for me to re-focus my reality and perceive what ever the hell I want and just like that it will happen. Wise men once said there are three dimensions to consider in the universe - time, space and patience. It's all energy. It's time for me to manifest my new reality just like I did with the new house, the red sox tickets, Carol. Whatever I want in life I can have, it's up to me. Today I choose to get healthy so I may live a more productive fulfilling life for mankind. Something important I am supposed to do, remember? Getting better is a state of mind and I am back to claim it. I will try and share more on my journey but for now it's time to get back into life, to re-engage my environment, Here is PMH Atwater's description of NDE physical effects and psychological effects of experiencers. This is what she said after 30 years researching the NDE. I think it's right on target actually. Thanks PMH.
"There is no question in my mind that the NDE itself consists of or is based upon a force so strong that people can be changed physically as well as psychologically. Physical changes reported the most often include: a sensitivity to light or affinity to the same and sound as well. A reversal of body clocks, expanded faculties, subsequent lower blood pressure, a decreased tolerance of pharmaceutical drugs and chemical agents, heightened intelligence and/or creative intuitive abilities. Alterations to some degree in the nervous and digestive systems, electrical sensitivity or conductivity, and multiple sensing (synesthesia). Psychological changes involve such characteristics as loss of fear of death, becoming more loving and compassionate, less concerned for material goals, more spiritually inclined...not religious...spiritual, occupational changes that are more service or healing ordered, comfort with what used to be intolerable before, loss of time constraints, a "charisma" that seems to "charm" others (sometimes even animals), less stressed, and a deep profound sense of knowing that increases over time. Sixth sense abilities flourish and need for control is paramount. The degree to which these changes occur depends on the intensity of the experiencer. A oneness,...the unity of all things is clear. It's about the energy after all...even to the basic cell...it's still all about energy.
PMH Atwater's book We Live Forever should be a mandated read in every school in my opinion. Won't ever happen, but it should. If you have questions about dying and grieving, read this. Or just grieve. It's a choice. I suspect if we learn more about death and stop avoiding it until forced to face it, the theory and beauty get easier to accept and understand. It's not rocket science. Energy doesn't die, it can't be destroyed. Where does it go? The environment!!!! They are watching us all. Try that one on for size. We cry out of selfishness of missing someone. If you only knew the freedom these people have after death, unrestricted by mortal bodies, they are everywhere watching and guiding. I am certain of it. We should celebrate the death of energy to a new form. Stop believing in the theory that if you can't see it, it doesn't exist. I've been telling you all for months this very topic is the key hole to peek through. It's all right in front of you. Dogma kills evolution. Reap it, spread it, share the love.
Here are more writings of this author...keep sharing the light
People are Dramatically Changed by Near-Death Experiences
The following article was written by P.M.H. Atwater, L.H.D., Ph.D. (Hon.), reprinted by permission, concerning the dramatic aftereffects of a near-death experience. This article is also available on her NDE website.
No matter what the nature of the experience, it alters some lives. Alcoholics find themselves unable to imbibe. Hardened criminals opt for a life of helping others. Atheists embrace the existence of a deity, while dogmatic members of a particular religion report "feeling welcome in any church or temple or mosque."
Nancy Evans Bush, president emeritus of the International Association for Near-Death Studies, says the experience is revelatory. "Most near-death survivors say they don't think there is a God," she says. "They know."
In 1975, when Raymond Moody published Life After Life, a book that coined the term "near-death experience" (NDE) to describe this hard-to-define phenomenon. Moody interviewed 150 near-death patients who reported vivid experiences (flashing back to childhood, coming face to face with Christ). He found that those who had undergone NDEs became more altruistic, less materialistic, and more loving.
Bruce Greyson and Ian Stevenson have been instrumental in gathering evidence indicating that religious backgrounds do not affect who is most likely to have a NDE. They have mapped out the conversion-like effects of NDEs that can sometimes lead to hardship.
"They can see the good in all people," Greyson says of people who have experienced the phenomenon. "They act fairly naive, and they often allow themselves to be opened up to con men who abuse their trust."
They have gathered reports of high divorce rates and problems in the workplace following NDEs.
"The values you get from a NDE are not the ones you need to function in everyday life," says Greyson. Having stared eternity in the face, he observes, those who return often lose their taste for ego-boosting achievement.
Not even the diehard skeptics doubt the powerful personal effects of NDEs. "This is a profound emotional experience," explains Nuland. "People are convinced that they've seen heaven."
|1. Another Look at the Aftereffects of the NDE|
Only twenty-one percent of those near-death survivors I interviewed denied the existence of aftereffects. Of these, most either reported having had a brief encounter; or, regardless of what type of episode they had, it seemed to have little or no impact on them. The rest reported significant, life-changing differences afterward (nineteen percent claimed radical turn-arounds, almost as if they had become another person). Before and after photographs can differ.
Any notion that, as a compensatory gift, some people are privileged to survive death, see heaven, and return dedicated to selfless service for all humankind, is commonly referred to in the research field as "The Myth of Amazing Grace." That's because there are both positive and negative aspects to the aftereffects ... passing through death's door seems merely to be "Step One." Integrating the experience is the real adventure - making what was learned real and workable in everyday life. No "set of instructions" covers how to do this. Lengthy bouts with depression can occur.
|2. Psychological Aftereffects|
I have observed that it seems to take a minimum of seven years for most NDErs to integrate the aftereffects. Although these cannot be faked, an individual can delay the onset of them or deny their existence. Seven major elements comprise the universal pattern:
Unconditional Love - NDErs perceive themselves as equally and fully loving of each and all, openly generous, excited about the potential and wonder of each person they see. Confused family members tend to regard this sudden switch in behavior as oddly threatening, as if their loved one had become aloof, un-responsive, even uncaring or unloving.
Lack of Boundaries - Familiar codes of conduct can lose relevance or disappear altogether as unlimited avenues of interest and inquiry take priority. This new frame of reference can infuse NDErs with such an accepting nature that they can and do display childlike naivety. With the fading of previous norms and standards, basic cautions and discernments can also fade.
Timelessness - Most NDErs begin to "flow" with natural shift of time, rejecting locks and schedules as they exhibit a heightened awareness of the present moment and the importance of "now." They are easily distracted and can appear "spacey" until they readjust to the demands of daily routines.
The Psychic - Extrasensory perception and various types of psychic phenomena become normal and ordinary in the lives of NDErs. A person's religious beliefs do not prevent this expansion of faculties or enlargements of perceptual range. This can frighten the unprepared and be misconstrued as "the devil's work" when it is actually more akin to "gifts of the spirit."
Reality Switches - Hard-driving achievers and materialists can transform into easy-going philosophers; but, by the same token, those once more relaxed or uncommitted can become energetic "movers and shakers," determined to make a difference in the world. Switches seem to depend more on what is "needed" to round out the individual's growth than on any uniform result.
The Soul as Self - Most come to recognize themselves as an immortal soul currently resident within material form so lessons can be learned while sojourning in the Earth realm. They know they are not their body; it is a "jacket" they wear. The majority develop an interest in reincarnation, some accept it as valid.
Modes of Communications - What was once foreign becomes familiar, what was once familiar becomes foreign. Rationale of any kind tends to lose its logic as NDErs begin to think more abstractly and in grandiose terms. New ways of using language, even whole new vocabularies, emerge.
Within some households, relatives are so impressed by what they witness with their loved one that they too change, making the NDE a "shared" event. In other families, though, the response is so negative that alienation, separation, or divorce results. The situation with children, who undergo the same aftereffects as adults, can be doubly challenging, since they lack the ability to speak up for themselves, negotiate, or seek alternatives.
Basing the degree of an individual's transformation solely on before and after contrasts can distort or mask deeper issues that may eventually undermine the best of intentions - for researchers as well as NDErs.
|3. Physiological Aftereffects|
Not just the psyche is affected by the near-death phenomenon. A person's body and the very way life is lived undergo changes too. Mundane chores can take on surrealistic dimensions.
Briefly, here are the more typical physiological aftereffects: substantially altered energy levels, hypersensitive to light and sound, unusual sensitivity to chemicals (especially pharmaceuticals), stress easier to handle, lower blood pressure, increased intelligence, clustered thinking (as opposed to sequential), charismatic, quicker assimilation, increased allergies of various kinds, reduction in red meat consumption, "merge" easily (absorption), latent talents surface, a hunger for knowledge, synchronicity commonplace, multiple sensing (synesthesia), body clocks can reverse, more orgasmic, "inner child" issues surface, become electrical sensitives (where a person's energy field affects electricity and electronic devices - many can no longer wear watches, microphones "fight" them, etc.).
Seventy-three percent of my research base reported incidents of electrical sensitivity. To explore this further, I sent out a questionnaire that netted me some surprises - about subjective light:
The correlation between length of exposure to "etheric" light and the vivid spread of physiological changes afterward is more involved than at first glance. That's because respondents with shorter exposure rates (1 to 25% of their experience) had the same capacity for the full range of physical aftereffects, while some with over 50% exposure rates declared few if any such changes.
This suggests to me that it is the intensity of the light - not length of exposure - that seems to determine the prevalence of many of the aftereffects. And this implies that the etheric or subjective light reported by so many near-death survivors may indeed be as real and powerful as it seems - and subject to measurement studies and testing.
|4. Brain Shift|
Considering the experience, the average near-death survivor returns more intelligent and loving than before. He or she is usually able to detach from previous norms, abstract freely, envision broader perspectives for a more compassionate and positive life, access latent talents, and display (in some cases) a flowering of genius. In other words, exhibit all the elements of a brain shift .
Thanks to PET (positron emission tomography), science has been able to establish that original thinking utilizes a different section of the brain than mundane thinking. To quote Marcus Raichle, a researcher at Washington University: "You can essentially rearrange the brain in fifteen minutes." Since the average near-death survivor was "dead," that is to say without pulse and breath, for ten to fifteen minutes, some for hours ("walking up" in the morgue), it is fair to say that such an experience could and does have a dramatic effect on the individual and his or her brain.
Considering the aftereffects, the near-death phenomenon seems to stimulate the brain hemisphere that was not previously dominant. There is also an observable movement in the brain, structurally, toward data clustering and creative invention - as if the NDEr were developing a more synergistic type of neutral network - thus advancing the potential of whole brained behavior (less dependent on any single type of hemispheric dominance, greater flexibility and utilization of the brain itself).
Interestingly, this same type of thing, this particular pattern of aftereffects both psychological and physiological, also appears to happen to people who undergo a religious conversion, spiritual transformation, shamanic vision quest,kundalini breakthrough, some incidences of head trauma or being hit by lightning, as well as the near-death phenomenon. And I believe for the same reason ... a brain shift.
Reportings of impactual experiences of this nature are on the rise, globally, underscoring the supposition that we may be readjusting as a species - literally at the very moment in history when the demand for more intelligent, loving people who are creative problem solvers, is increasing.
But a brain shift may not be the only goal with these NDErs.
Look again at near-death imagery.
It is well-known that electrical stimulation of the right temporal lobe (above the right ear) and specifically in the Sylvian fissure  produces visions of God, hearing beautiful music, seeing dead friends and relatives, even panoramic life reviews. Yet, every near-death incident I know of that had elements in it unknowable to the NDEr that could be checked, was checked, and every one of those details was verified. Those who deny this are people who refuse to acknowledge previous research.
Example: In one of my cases, a four-year-old boy drowned in his parents' backyard swimming pool. Emergency crews were called. After fifteen minutes the boy revived (Typical of most near-death incidents, there was no brain damage.). Immediately, he spoke of meeting his little brother on The Other Side, a little brother of about two years of age yet able to converse. As the youngster was an only child, his parents rightfully assumed he was hallucinating - until the story that spilled out, specific details about Mommy's "mistake" at thirteen and her subsequent abortion, was confirmed by the chalk-white, shocked mother. No friends or family knew about the abortion, and the mother had long since forgotten it. But here was her "only" child quoting what the aborted child told him. The schism that developed between the parents over this affair led to a divorce.
It is arrogant to dismiss cases like this. Certainly, there is ample evidence to suggest that much of the imagery in near-death scenarios is "accommodation" (i.e., the appearance and age of the aborted son in the previous episode). Similarly, in every case I have investigated, if the NDEr asked what appeared to be God or a light being or an angel if that was what that heavenly host really looked like, the image would immediately dissolve into a burst of radiant light. The individual would then be told that shapes familiar to him or her were used to quell fear and anxiety, that the reality of light worlds was beyond human comprehension.
Yet, again and again, details absolutely impossible for the individual to know are seen and later verified - like descriptions of the accident or hospital room, family secrets, various observations and insights - none of which are accommodations from the temporal lobe yet most of them found interspersed throughout an archetypal storyline as old as history records.
Obviously, there is more to the human spirit than can be proven scientifically, and there is more to living than our sensory faculties define.
What we are left with, at least until we can initiate the next phase of research, a project of cross-cultural, interdisciplinarian measurement studies , is this extraordinary truth: near-death episodes reveal more about life than they do death, and what they reveal is an aliveness and a power above and beyond anything we can presently fathom.
If viewed objectively, there is a reoccurring theme running throughout the phenomenon's research, and that is ... we may be programmed by our very birth to constantly and continuously grow in consciousness and in spirit. What we think are endings may be nothing more than just another beginning.
 I develop the concept of brain shift further in my book Future Memory, hardcover Birch Lane Press, New York City, 1995. And, in the self-published book, Brain Shift: Using the Near-Death Experience as a Theoretical Model to Explore the Transformation of Consciousness. This self-published book is available only from me - details on how to order elsewhere in this website.
 Among presentations of this material is the book Closer to the Light: Learning from the Near-Death Experiences of Children, by Melvin Morse, M.D. and Paul Perry. New York, NY; Villard Books, 1990.
 The International Association For Near-Death Studies (IANDS) has taken it upon itself to establish just such a research project, and it is now soliciting funds from whomever wants to contribute. Send monies, American dollars please, to IANDS, P. O. Box 502, East Windsor Hill, CT 06028-0502; (860) 528-5144. It is now time to move past superstars and media sound-bytes to do the clinical, cross-cultural and interdisciplinarian research needed in the field."